Artist // Student // Literature
- July 28
- United States
- Deviant for 12 years
- hootthegambino.tumblr.com
- He / Him
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My Bio
Welcome to my Zombie Circus...
Under the surface,
I am hurtin,
Feeling deserted,
and like I wasn't worth it
I'm kinda lost,
and I don't really know how to word it,
I strive for the best,
never asked for "fucking perfect",
So why in the hell do I always get less than I'm deserving?
Invest my time and energy,
pass all your little test,
Just to prove to you I'm not only after your chest,
or the rest,
I just wanted to get to know you,
kiss you and hold you,
Only make a bold move after conversations you hold to.
I did everything I could,
I tried to keep things interesting,
and in my eyes,
you're everything that's shinning and that's glistening,
As time went on,
things came up,
the loves songs stop playing,
I started listening,
to the words you were saying,
and catch on what I was missing.
You ripped me into pieces, dear,
as you ripped me in two pieces, tears.
I struggled as you drowned me in my own fears,
as my peers watched around me.
My thoughts surround me.
They have me compromised,
I don't know why I can't give you up,
It only makes me cry,
and hate myself and that date,
9 days away is a day that was great.
I can't escape my wicked fate,
I'm trapped in this maze,
sorta in a daze,
crazy ass thoughts cradle me to my fucking grave.
mocking me for everything to you, that I fucking gave.
Love is the master,
and you had me as your fucking slave,
but then you let me go,
and your possesion's what I fucking craved.
So I jumped up off the edge,
letting you know that I forgave,
you for everything,
and teaching me how to behave,
Now I'm quickly falling,
This time I am who you got to save,
like I saved you save me on this early day.
All thats left to say,
is I dont really know how much more I can take,
I'm hoping that I'm bad dreaming,
and you soon will wake me up and tell me it was all fake.
I don't really know how much is at stake,
Rock bottom is in front of me,
I'm finally about to break.
Current Residence: Hell
deviantWEAR sizing preference: XL
Favourite genre of music: Indie based Hip-Hop
Favourite photographer: Elizabeth Albarn
Favourite style of art: Abstract
Favourite cartoon character: Huey Freeman
Personal Quote: I think I passed insanity a few exits back..Now I'm on mental calamity and all Hell is breaking
Under the surface,
I am hurtin,
Feeling deserted,
and like I wasn't worth it
I'm kinda lost,
and I don't really know how to word it,
I strive for the best,
never asked for "fucking perfect",
So why in the hell do I always get less than I'm deserving?
Invest my time and energy,
pass all your little test,
Just to prove to you I'm not only after your chest,
or the rest,
I just wanted to get to know you,
kiss you and hold you,
Only make a bold move after conversations you hold to.
I did everything I could,
I tried to keep things interesting,
and in my eyes,
you're everything that's shinning and that's glistening,
As time went on,
things came up,
the loves songs stop playing,
I started listening,
to the words you were saying,
and catch on what I was missing.
You ripped me into pieces, dear,
as you ripped me in two pieces, tears.
I struggled as you drowned me in my own fears,
as my peers watched around me.
My thoughts surround me.
They have me compromised,
I don't know why I can't give you up,
It only makes me cry,
and hate myself and that date,
9 days away is a day that was great.
I can't escape my wicked fate,
I'm trapped in this maze,
sorta in a daze,
crazy ass thoughts cradle me to my fucking grave.
mocking me for everything to you, that I fucking gave.
Love is the master,
and you had me as your fucking slave,
but then you let me go,
and your possesion's what I fucking craved.
So I jumped up off the edge,
letting you know that I forgave,
you for everything,
and teaching me how to behave,
Now I'm quickly falling,
This time I am who you got to save,
like I saved you save me on this early day.
All thats left to say,
is I dont really know how much more I can take,
I'm hoping that I'm bad dreaming,
and you soon will wake me up and tell me it was all fake.
I don't really know how much is at stake,
Rock bottom is in front of me,
I'm finally about to break.
Current Residence: Hell
deviantWEAR sizing preference: XL
Favourite genre of music: Indie based Hip-Hop
Favourite photographer: Elizabeth Albarn
Favourite style of art: Abstract
Favourite cartoon character: Huey Freeman
Personal Quote: I think I passed insanity a few exits back..Now I'm on mental calamity and all Hell is breaking
Favourite Visual Artist
Odd Future
Favourite Movies
Harry Potter 4
Favourite TV Shows
Dexter
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
OFWGKTA
Favourite Books
Harry Potter 1-7
Favourite Games
umm Black OPs?
Favourite Gaming Platform
PS3 and Xbox 360
Tools of the Trade
Laptop, pen, paper
Other Interests
Poetry
KiLLRaMaR
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I'm on the verge, 5 minutes from suicide, I tried run and tried to hide, so instead I'll live inside my head, where it all makes sense to me. I can just be...instead of existing, I can live, I can be free. So today I close myself off to the people who think they know me. If only you could all see. The hell inside my head, created by me. My hopes and my dreams, like broken cities and fallen beams, the theme of my mind is a Nightmare of better things gone wrong. Angels without wings turned Demons who laugh and sing sad songs. I write this note to all who were aware. The ones who stopped and showed they cared. Stared right through and saw my pro
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Bastard
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This is why I'll cut my wrist before I go to sleep,
I've given up, I'm all alone, Can't even fucking eat.
I love this girl, well idk, we'll never fucking meet.
I pour my heart out to my friends because I'm so depressed,
Some people say that they hate me,
I tell them their impressed,
I feel I sit in sin, depressions setting in...
it happens...
[Verse 2]
I'm feeling crazy, I'm hating life, like I hate my parents,
My parents hate me too, Just thought I'd maybe fucking share it,
Embarrassed parents of a son, won't eat his fucking carrots,
Pissing them off too extremes, they sent him to the barracks.
He had to raise himself, he did it
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Kill People, Burn Shit, Fuck School
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Sometimes I feel like pulling a Columbine
Virginia Tech shit, spark a 9, nations affected
Will they say it was that I rapped that made my early exit?
They gon flip once they heard I said this
Nevermind that, on some Nirvana shit
I know what the problem is, the problem is you're too simple minded
To rap your head around the fact I'm running circles round, you
This game boy advanced I'm hardly even Earthly bound
I say I love the truth but, part of me loves lies
Like saying that I'm winning shit, Charlie Sheen punchline
My heart concedes love dies eventually so I don't get involved
I'd rather spit bars and tell em to lick my balls
I'
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Hi KiLRaMaR! 
Hey, i know you. (Rayne here)
I know who you are
Uhm hey you can actually submit these.
Submit what?
Your writing. You posted them as journals. You should submit them as art.
how?
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